wow. i’m not going to lie, thinking about leaving for nine months is such a scary feeling, and sometimes extremely sad. in one month, i end high school, and in three months i leave for world race. it’s not easy to think about leaving behind everything ive ever known. its not easy thinking about growing up. it’s not easy to go through such a big change. it’s not always easy following God. but, it’s always always worth it.
Jesus is worth it. there is a God who is infinitely greater than any of my fear. Jesus is greater. and He calls us to lay our anxieties at His feet because He cares for us (1 peter 5:7). we cannot do this life on our own. i cannot do this on my own. every breath, every dollar fundraised, every word i write, every prayer i prayer is because of Jesus.
it’s all from Him, and it is all for Him.
many people have asked me why i’m going on world race, and how i am able to. and my answer is simply this – because of Jesus. i’m going on world race because i’ve been changed by His love and i can’t help but share it. i love because He loved me first (1 john 4:19). and im able to say yes because His love compels me to action. i cannot hold in the very news that has changed my life, and i cannot refuse this amazing adventure that Jesus has called me on.
im going because many times the greatest refinement, testimonies, and change come from relentlessly pursuing Jesus in complete surrender and allowing Him to use you in any way He wishes.
i may have moments where i am crazy nervous and sad about leaving. but it is in those moments where Jesus comforts and reminds me that He’s never left and He’ll never leave. i may be thousands of miles away from “home,” but His arms are my real home. His love is where i find my strength. my hope. my joy. my peace.
so, less than 4 months to go until i leave for world race!! i am crazy excited and genuinely cannot wait to continue to serve others.
i cannot wait to look into the eyes of precious children and tell them, maybe for the first time, that they are loved. i cannot wait to meet other teens who are unashamed and bold in their pursuit of Jesus. i cannot wait to be refined in the hard times and be stretched in my faith like never before. i cannot wait to share the gospel and remind people of the saving grace that is found only in Jesus. i cannot wait to learn new languages, new cultures, hear people’s stories, and make new friends. i long to see revival in our broken world, and i know revival is only found in the power of Jesus and the truth of the gospel- the truth that Jesus came down, lived a perfect life, died on a cross for our sins, and rose again, conquering sin and death, and offering forgiveness by the power of His blood.
i live for Him.
here and now, and in 4 months.
He is worthy of my surrender. He is worthy of it ALL.
every breath.
every step.
every moment of my worship.
so i will go.
how can i not?
here i am Lord.
send me.
i trust you with everything Abba.
“And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?”
matthew 6:28-30
He is Jehovah Jireh, our Provider. He is present in every season.
why should I worry if the God of creation is before me, behind me, beside me, and within me?
